Ok, just so we're clear, I was born a girl, I am a girl, and will forever be a girl. I am not experiencing gender dysphoria. Despite me knowing I'm a girl, I dislike it a whole bunch. And in this rant, I'll tell you all why.
For starters, I don't like having breasts. A little fact about me, I was "blessed" with large milk machines. And guess what again? It sucks! If you look up Busty Girl Problems you'd see a lot of what I go through every day. Bras are essential, and they essentially burn a hole in my wallet. I get back pains and I can't even sleep comfortably without one on. Oh how I wish they were smaller. You girls with smaller busts don't know how good you got it.
Secondly, periods. Yeah, yeah, this has been said before, but it's true! I have to spend an entire week in pain and bleeding from my no-no. Why was I looking forward to this as a kid? (I starting developing before my period happened, little fun fact) To be honest, I can take the bleeding; fine, it happens. But the PAIN?? WHY does it have to hurt so freaking badly? Cramps so bad you can't sit or stand up straight, forget about moving at all. Remind me again how this helps us survive?
And thirdly, ooohh thirdly. You guys have NO IDEA how much I detest this; so many societal norms and stereotypes for girls. I just have to look at them and marvel at WHY they are and WHY I have to follow them.
Wearing makeup: nope! Sensory issue, actually.
Nail polish: nada! Also a sensory issue.
Shaving every day: what, is it gross to have hair where hair be? I'll have Chewbacca legs if I want to have Chewbacca legs.
Doing my hair: like I got the time and/or desire to spend extensive amounts of time getting my hair "right,"
Dresses and skirts: ehh, a bit lower on the list, since I will wear them if I have to, but in my spare time? Wouldn't be caught dead
"Girly" interests: what's that? You want me to love going clothes shopping? Want me to love talking about dating? Who kissed who? High heels? Boyfriends? Sorry, can't hear you over how much I don't give a sh--
ANYWAY, in short, I'm a girl who fails at "being a girl," if that makes sense at all. I am a female who rejects a lot of feminine things. In fact, I've actually had my hair cut boy short quite a few months ago. Like, August of last year. I've just never really gotten around to announcing that I have done so, not really that kind of person anymore. I've kept the short hair look, I like how it looks and how it feels. People want me to grow it back out again, but I don't want to yet. I like how manageable it is, how it doesn't need a handful of shampoo to maintain, how it doesn't snarl up my brush, etc.
I guess I'm just a tomboy. I don't know if there's any definitive term for me, I haven't really cared about all these weird identity terms that's all the craze nowadays.